I hate colonoscopy day.

this is the story of my last colonoscopy. June 3 2016. [I have another one coming up this Wednesday. insert crying like a baby face here.]

so, May 31 was my first official day in remission as there was no blood in my stool that morning. (blood is the last symptom to take a hike when I go back in to remission.)

then the eve of June 2 I am chugalugging 4 LITRES of liquid drugs aka poison toxic overload. (this is one kind of prep that is required before a colonoscopy, to clean oneself out) all the while wondering what it was doing to my recently healed, ever so delicate, intestinal lining…. Continue reading “I hate colonoscopy day.”

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this is how privilege works.

please take less than 5 minutes out of your day to watch this. sometimes we all could use a shift in perspective to help be better humans. this video is so powerful and eye-opening.

and if you’re anything like me, grab a tissue.

how I stopped the next flare in it’s tracks.

step one. don’t do THIS↓ all summer long and you won’t have a flare to stop in the first place.

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HA. just kidding. the stress from wine deprivation alone would be enough to put me in a flare.

lol. kidding again. kindaaaa.

Continue reading “how I stopped the next flare in it’s tracks.”

when you fall off the wagon, it’s stupid hard to get back on.

this summer has been all kinds of cheating when it comes to my diet. actually i’d by lying if I didn’t say this summer AND spring.

when I’m in remission, staying away from ‘trigger foods’ is extra hard because I don’t actually feel sick right after I eat them. for the most part. sometimes I’ll bloat up like a balloon or I’ll get pains on the side of my tummy but the majority of the time if I eat something ‘bad’ I don’t actually feel it doing damage. Until it’s too late. then BAM. i’m in a flare.

to my #ibdfighters reading this:  the struggle is real, right? or how does remission feel for you? is it hard to keep the diet tight or easy because you feel sick immediately after you eat something?

so far this time around i’ve been in remission since end of February. so six months.

tonight I actually went out of my way to get some terrible food cause I obviously didn’t have it in the house and I was craving it like crazy.

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Kraft Dinner, I hate you, you jerk.

the two glasses of wine I had probably helped bring those cravings on and definitely impaired my judgement cause when I got to Safeway I also thought it was a good idea to get a tub of peanut butter and chocolate ICE CREAM. insert monkey-face-with-hands-over-eyes emoji here. go big or go home, right? #stupidme.

thank goodness I got back in to my exercise routine since i’m back from my #summeradventure and my stress levels have been pretty low :) I think that’s been my saving grace. AND, it’s SUMMER. I really believe that this season helps to keep me in remission. + all the Vitamin D from the sun. work isn’t crazy busy. lots of lake time. beautiful sunsets …..

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peace and calm can always be found at the lake.

I am strong and I can do this. back to healthy eating, jenna.

night night, to whoever is reading this. xo.

This is what throwing-in-the-towel looks like in #colitislife

what I mean by ‘throwing in the towel’ is that I kinda let #vacaymode get in the way and gave up on my stay-in-remission-diet and exercise routine. oye. 

I may have gotten carried away with some cheeeeeese tonight. And wine. And gyozas 🙈. And waaay more crap than I should have over the last 2 weeks.
But I am on a #vacay and it’s summer time. Sooooo. I am allowed to stray from the plan, right?
I NEED to stay away from gluten, potatoes and dairy. + a lot of other crap, but those are probably my main 3 intolerances.
But it’s HARD.
More on that later. for now, I have to tighten shit up. Or this could get out of hand and I’m going to wind up in a flare.
Goodnight from Revelstoke, BC. Xo
(I’m staying in an Airbnb and now I am hooked)

living the #goodlife. YES, it is still possible with a chronic disease.

at work and i’m ready to go! it’s my #clientsweddingday

I’ve got a long evening ahead of me but i’m excited to be a part of another special day.

*** fast forward thru all the chaos **** I finally have a moment to sit down.

I have a million thoughts going on in my brain right now. trying to weed through them and pick the most interesting ones to share with all of you. well, wait. are ‘all of you’ still out there? or did you stop following me since I’ve kinda been MIA for the last little while!! crazy how I go in to these bouts of ‘just not feeling it.’ [writing/bloggin]

since my last post  Continue reading “living the #goodlife. YES, it is still possible with a chronic disease.”

THIRTY. you feel GOOD. Let’s do this!!!

Holy WOW I have THE best family and friends.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who took the time to make me feel extra special yesterday. You guys are what make my world go round. YOU are all what make this life so crazy good.

I appreciate the well birthday wishes… texts, fb posts/messages, emails, the meaningful cards. all THE LOVE.
y’all sure make me feel special. Happy happy girl over here. Each and every bday wish I received means so much to me. Continue reading “THIRTY. you feel GOOD. Let’s do this!!!”

ZERO FOX GIVEN cause it’s international day of HAPPY!

[[International Day of Happiness is March 20th. ] 

today is #internationdayofhappiness so for that I am not letting anything get in the way of my happy! I decided I’m GETTING IN that gosh darn pool! Cause holy smokes was it HOT. I should be avoiding chlorinated pools like the plague, but I went for it :)    I feel like we always need an exception to the rule. especially on vacation. Right? It’s been 3 days straight  of 95 degrees and I’ve held out for this long. But today I said, F* it. i’m getting in pool. AND. my DAD was also in the pool. I think I can count on one hand how many times in my 29 years I’ve had an opportunity to swim with my dad! So there. Definitely worth it.

I think it’s important to not get hung up on the rules ALL OF THE TIME.  So we do what makes us happy. AND THAT’S OKAY. Continue reading “ZERO FOX GIVEN cause it’s international day of HAPPY!”

Today is international day of happiness!


my mom would not be impressed to see ketchup on my plate 😜 but I don’t care cause #internationaldayofhappiness . aaand the processed sweet potato tots full of canola oil + cornstarch are another no-no 😋 Buuuut, I’m on #vacay sooo..YUM! This breaky makes me #HAPPY! hey, at least my egg yolks aren’t fully cooked so I’m getting some vitamin B! Plus D cause I’m eating in the SUN. Yeah baby 😎
#yummybreakfast #mesaarizona #wannabesnowbird #foodisthymedicine #healing #colitisgirl #ibd #ulcerativecolitis #colitis #autoimmunedisease #liveagreatstory #lifestyleblog #winnipegblogger #winnipeg #kateandmeblog #bewell #behappy #bepositive #gratefulheart #justbelieve

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Feel the fear and do it anyway.

today I woke up to two really sweet / encouraging / motivating / inspiring / comments here on the blog. from STRANGERS. so that is always exciting. thank you to those who take the time to give me feedback. it really means a lot and makes a difference because sometimes it’s easy Continue reading “Feel the fear and do it anyway.”