today marks ONE FULL YEAR that I’ve been in remission. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

never in my #colitislife have I achieved that milestone. never before have I gone one full bleepin’ YEAR.

Holy POOOOP.

this calls for a dance party. and a glass of wine! ha. just kidding. better not push the envelope. I did have a whole bottle of wine and lots of cheese this past Saturday. insert monkey holding hands over eyes face here. i’m caught in an eating-my-feelings vicious circle. or it’s more like a tornado. Continue reading “today marks ONE FULL YEAR that I’ve been in remission. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)”

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Indulging tonight.

This is what I call a #colitishealthfail.

But it’s Friday. Friyay. And it was gooood. So there’s that 🤷🏻‍♀️

and at least that’s one of my homemade grass-fed beef patties. That counts for something, right?

‘grow through, what you go through.’

this post is going to read like chaos. cause that is how life has felt for the last long while. or maybe it’s more like an intense overwhelmingness. I dunno. all I know is that soooooo much has happened this year. so so much. a TON of good. but since September I’m feeling like life has been testing me and teaching me some harder than normal lessons.

the last 4 weeks in particular have been intense. game-changer / ‘time-to-make-some-changes’ intense.  I am truly amazed that I am not in a flare right now because the stress has been out of control.  I don’t think, ever in my life, that I’ve felt so mentally + emotionally + physically overwhelmed all at the same time over such a long stretch. and there are some people I’d like to blame for that. but I cannot. because at the end of the day, I am responsible for everything that happens to me. and it’s up to me to not give other people the power to control my thoughts and actions.

If I do not go in to a flare shortly, then VSL#3 and chicken feet are saving my life.

colonoscopy first thing tomorrow morning so we will see what my guts tell mr doc. man.

praying.

 

I hate colonoscopy day.

this is the story of my last colonoscopy. June 3 2016. [I have another one coming up this Wednesday. insert crying like a baby face here.]

so, May 31 was my first official day in remission as there was no blood in my stool that morning. (blood is the last symptom to take a hike when I go back in to remission.)

then the eve of June 2 I am chugalugging 4 LITRES of liquid drugs aka poison toxic overload. (this is one kind of prep that is required before a colonoscopy, to clean oneself out) all the while wondering what it was doing to my recently healed, ever so delicate, intestinal lining…. Continue reading “I hate colonoscopy day.”

how I stopped the next flare in it’s tracks.

step one. don’t do THIS↓ all summer long and you won’t have a flare to stop in the first place.

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HA. just kidding. the stress from wine deprivation alone would be enough to put me in a flare.

lol. kidding again. kindaaaa.

Continue reading “how I stopped the next flare in it’s tracks.”

when you fall off the wagon, it’s stupid hard to get back on.

this summer has been all kinds of cheating when it comes to my diet. actually i’d by lying if I didn’t say this summer AND spring.

when I’m in remission, staying away from ‘trigger foods’ is extra hard because I don’t actually feel sick right after I eat them. for the most part. sometimes I’ll bloat up like a balloon or I’ll get pains on the side of my tummy but the majority of the time if I eat something ‘bad’ I don’t actually feel it doing damage. Until it’s too late. then BAM. i’m in a flare.

to my #ibdfighters reading this:  the struggle is real, right? or how does remission feel for you? is it hard to keep the diet tight or easy because you feel sick immediately after you eat something?

so far this time around i’ve been in remission since end of February. so six months.

tonight I actually went out of my way to get some terrible food cause I obviously didn’t have it in the house and I was craving it like crazy.

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Kraft Dinner, I hate you, you jerk.

the two glasses of wine I had probably helped bring those cravings on and definitely impaired my judgement cause when I got to Safeway I also thought it was a good idea to get a tub of peanut butter and chocolate ICE CREAM. insert monkey-face-with-hands-over-eyes emoji here. go big or go home, right? #stupidme.

thank goodness I got back in to my exercise routine since i’m back from my #summeradventure and my stress levels have been pretty low :) I think that’s been my saving grace. AND, it’s SUMMER. I really believe that this season helps to keep me in remission. + all the Vitamin D from the sun. work isn’t crazy busy. lots of lake time. beautiful sunsets …..

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peace and calm can always be found at the lake.

I am strong and I can do this. back to healthy eating, jenna.

night night, to whoever is reading this. xo.

This is what throwing-in-the-towel looks like in #colitislife

what I mean by ‘throwing in the towel’ is that I kinda let #vacaymode get in the way and gave up on my stay-in-remission-diet and exercise routine. oye. 

I may have gotten carried away with some cheeeeeese tonight. And wine. And gyozas 🙈. And waaay more crap than I should have over the last 2 weeks.
But I am on a #vacay and it’s summer time. Sooooo. I am allowed to stray from the plan, right?
I NEED to stay away from gluten, potatoes and dairy. + a lot of other crap, but those are probably my main 3 intolerances.
But it’s HARD.
More on that later. for now, I have to tighten shit up. Or this could get out of hand and I’m going to wind up in a flare.
Goodnight from Revelstoke, BC. Xo
(I’m staying in an Airbnb and now I am hooked)

ZERO FOX GIVEN cause it’s international day of HAPPY!

[[International Day of Happiness is March 20th. ] 

today is #internationdayofhappiness so for that I am not letting anything get in the way of my happy! I decided I’m GETTING IN that gosh darn pool! Cause holy smokes was it HOT. I should be avoiding chlorinated pools like the plague, but I went for it :)    I feel like we always need an exception to the rule. especially on vacation. Right? It’s been 3 days straight  of 95 degrees and I’ve held out for this long. But today I said, F* it. i’m getting in pool. AND. my DAD was also in the pool. I think I can count on one hand how many times in my 29 years I’ve had an opportunity to swim with my dad! So there. Definitely worth it.

I think it’s important to not get hung up on the rules ALL OF THE TIME.  So we do what makes us happy. AND THAT’S OKAY. Continue reading “ZERO FOX GIVEN cause it’s international day of HAPPY!”

Today is international day of happiness!


my mom would not be impressed to see ketchup on my plate 😜 but I don’t care cause #internationaldayofhappiness . aaand the processed sweet potato tots full of canola oil + cornstarch are another no-no 😋 Buuuut, I’m on #vacay sooo..YUM! This breaky makes me #HAPPY! hey, at least my egg yolks aren’t fully cooked so I’m getting some vitamin B! Plus D cause I’m eating in the SUN. Yeah baby 😎
#yummybreakfast #mesaarizona #wannabesnowbird #foodisthymedicine #healing #colitisgirl #ibd #ulcerativecolitis #colitis #autoimmunedisease #liveagreatstory #lifestyleblog #winnipegblogger #winnipeg #kateandmeblog #bewell #behappy #bepositive #gratefulheart #justbelieve

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fun, eventful, weekend. living life!

holy bleep did I just make a big freakin mess of my kitchen! but man did I make a masterpiece for dinner. I enjoy pinning recipes / food + beverage ideas on my  pinterest board ‘Bon Appetite’  and tonight’s meal was inspired by spaghetti squash chow mien + egg roll in a bowl . actually the idea to make this came from the left over cabbage I had from the sauerkraut I made this afternoon.  and then I used the pinterest recipes as my guide. and it was faily easy! though you’d prob wonder if you saw my kitchen?!

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so this is what I did: I threw the spaghetti squash in the oven,  fried up some ground turkey with onion flakes, garlic, salt / pepper. fried up the cabbage, shredded carrots + red onions. then made my sauce: extra virgin olive oil, garlic, ginger + coconut aminos [i’m really trying hard to limit soy in my diet. cause hormones].and garnished with green onions.

so now that dinner is done I’m having some cravings for the damn cookie dough I made yesterday. i’m trying hard not to have any because I’ve been cheating a little too much lately. testing myself. pushing the envelope, eating things that I should not be eating. like POTATOES. OR. eating lots of something I should really only be eating in moderation. like…. cookie dough. and wine. I maybe drank too much wine last last Friday and then again this past Friday. BUT, I feel like i’ve been managing my stress levels well and I’ve definitely increased my gym visits. so no flare-ups allowed!

cheese. I also had some cheese on Friday. cause wine. too much wine. in fact it was a child’s third birthday party, ha. but that’s our fam. and we do fun.
my sweet birthday boy, Mason, helped aunty make her special pizza. while everyone else ate 222222222222. and I can guarantee mine was SO. MUCH. BETTER. in the yummy sense and health-wise. (obviously).  >>insert some reader’s eye-rolls here<<     lol. it’s okay.

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so, yes! a great, busy, fun-filled  weekend was had….

kate’s place / maseman’s bday party on Friday night with all my favourite people. {well some were missing}. yesterday I did a lot of work with just believe and this blog… been working on my next post about SALT. then my mom and I hit up the parade of homes yesterday. I made my fav cookie dough. [which, dammit, I am eating now.]
today I had no one to get my butt to church so I just attended online :) ..did lots of house chores and some packing cause i’m gonna be flyin’ high again soon. (Arizona here I come!!)  finally got to making my  sauerkraut. now it has to ferment for 6 days. then started step 1 of another batch of my sprouted /fermented homemade bread. and I am still so excited about the yummy dinner I threw together. I think my mama mia over at the mia cucina blog would be impressed ;-)

so that is all. thanks for being here! and somebody come take this cookie dough away from me.

lots of love. ciao. xo